...My mother was a believer, she didn´t run to church every Sunday but she believed in everything

what you heard.

Peace, life after death.

So she wanted to die, I thought.

Just leave us alone, give up.

A sign that you have lost your hope.

If you just don´t see any other possibility, and yourself to those torments, and they were

Certainly, no longer want to expose.

I thought about that, I have to let go soon.

But I didn´t want it.

The closer this day came, the less I wanted it...